It’s fascinating to me, that a year that has seemed frozen in time could suddenly come to a close of leaps and bounds forward! Personal growth can be elusive that way…..its changes subtle…yet brilliantly clear.
I think a good comparison might be the way one walks from the bright sunlight into a dark room….stumbling and groping as pupils adjust. But a better and more spiritual analogy would be much the opposite…as eyes (and senses) long adjusted to the dark are suddenly exposed to light so bright, the glare obscures much of the new view until again, those pupils catch up. Only then can we begin to discern the changes in our surroundings…….the produce of a gradual and often painful change in our activities and habits……our relationships and our attitudes.
The process sort of reminds me of driving through dense fog….knowing where you need to go…..but frequently gripped with fear when you simply cannot see what’s immediately in front of you. It’s difficult to remind oneself….even with an impressive number of years into your life….the obvious truth that the fog always lifts sooner or later. The fear of not being able to see around you is there whether you continue to drive or not. So drive you must. Where is that Faith…that like a muscle not well exercised will fail you when you need it most?
So in this frozen year 2015….Fear might, at first blush, have hindered all chance of growth were it not for the fact that it sent me running for the shelter of my Heavenly Father to ask for help….over and over again and still ……the fog hung low and I couldn’t tell that I was moving at all.
I’m sure most of you know where the fog lifts and the bright sun breaks through….pupils adjust….and you see a new and different world and realize it’s not the world that has changed. The fog lifts completely and unconditionally….and ONLY at the point of total surrender. I feel the joy of my youth still unchanged in my heart….realizing the timelessness of growth and the absoluteness of perfect love. I embrace 2016 with hallelujahs…and I am grateful beyond words. Humbled and deeply grateful. Thank You Rabboni.